Dont act stupid things Leong ShuJen,people don like ok?
Know to control urself
I jealous la!Why u guys can always stick together and take so much of photos?
Previously im the frequent show out person in ur album==I rarely miss the gatherings or activities u guys organised,bt this year,i reli miss so much lo==
Anyway,luckily at kl oso make many frens,and can share joyful wif me too
Bt i reli miss the time tat spend with u all
Nvm,Im sincerely hoping our frenship wont change,I didn find u guys doesnt mean tat i hav forgotten u all==REALLY lol
U guys are the person who light up my life~
All of u hav occupied space in my memories,all of u are my best pal~
Im reli glad,tat i hav sooo much of frens,
Im facing final 2moro,reli suck,but after tat,im holiday ing!!!!!Hurray~Fast fast!im challenging u !

Everyone struggling for final exam,why i stil hav the right to sleep util 1pm then wake up!yesterday like tat oso, promise today i wan wake earlier,bt why i cant make my promise?I very pekcek nw,baru Bangun,i surfing fb,c all the utarian comment,must study nw,stil don wan off line?Its very late le must study..THose kinds of comments,and then receive Ky call,i just woke up,thy already prepared to go mcd study le.Why i so useless?I slp until so late!If i woke up earlier,i wont wasting time!PEER PRESSURE U NOE?!I have a super duper awful feelings nw!i donnoe wat i wan to do next!I wish to study maths,bt seem bio is more urgent compared to maths,i wan to study maths,i realized i should study new chapter sin or revise bak the previuos chapters,when i decide to read the new topics,i found out that i don hav the notes!when i found out he notes,i didn completed the lecture notes!!!Argghhh,hopeless!ppl studying the textbook a Leong Shu Jen!!!!!U ?Even study lecture notes oso cant done well!!!!!!!!!Ok fine,then i say,nvm la go print out lo,rite?I didn hav so much cash in my wallet nw,means i wna go ss2 mall atm ing then goin bak to kamsheng there print!Arggh,i very lazy to do that!!!I very pekcek!!!!!!!I noe nw i just wasting my time nagging here pekcek there!bt i reli LOST.Totally lost for temporary!I nid to calm down==A very small thing,i mess it,i owez like tat!Fuck!

不上fb，打部落，因该可以吧?


我知道我自己真的很差，是的，很差


Im the worst


18岁，该有的我都没有，我从来都不埋怨我的家人，我觉得他们很很很伟大


如果你家人是超级有钱，那他们供你读书，是简单的事，也是很幸福


但如果你家人是那种很幸苦的供你，只为你有出头天，那孩子因该好好珍惜，因为这一切，都是他们辛苦做工，给你读书的！


我不是富有的人，我家庭没有那些像你们一样，有多余的钱，我没有能力要求父母给我太多，我更不想要求他们给我太多，因为他们给我的，真的是太多太多，就算我被你看不起，那又怎样?或许小时候，会生气，为什么别人有，我没有?可是，我现在真的很自豪，我爸妈就是这样，那又怎样?没钱又怎样?现在我可能很差，我和你们比起来，我什么都没有


我相信，后天的努力，有一天，我去shopping mall，别人看到我，就会招待我，名牌店会为我而开门，助理会对我亲切微笑


我会给我家人，最好的一切


我会给我未来的另一半，一个好好的体贴


我是穷，可是我会modulus 自己，现在我什么都没有，我会伤心，会自卑，那是一定的


可是时间久了，我一定会变成一个可以对家人，负起责任的男人!我要当上流社会的人，我不要给你们看不起，我拿什么和你们比?


但我有爱我的家）还有我的好朋友们~

谁不想自己变得好看点，自信点?
希望有一天，我可以真的摆脱肥子这个事实，我和你扯上关系，快把年了T.T
12/12
生日快乐!谢谢大家，真的不懂要怎样形容，就谢谢=)
很充实的生日，早上到临晨，隔天早上还有，真的很享受~
14/12
好兄弟，生日快乐!我不知道是直觉还是错觉，你那天并没什么愉悦，但你为了顾全大局，还是很开心的度过，没有说摆什么臭脸，你真的大一岁了!
那天我真的很穷，我落魄到心情真的很差，原谅原谅
15/12
好了，庆祝完了，昨天看了临晨12点的MISSION IMPOSIBBLE.超好看，值得去看，tom cruise很lengzai~然后最近染上打球瘾，每晚得空都会去打~
16/12
离final还有十天，我却什么都还没开始，GG动力在那动力在哪?不准在怠慢，我知道，我sem4定了，真的很伤心，但fact is fact，cnt change
谁又会喜欢被别人否决自己的想法，而且还是好不给面子的当场否定你的言语，
如果和你是像庭芳那样的好朋友关系，你否定我罢了，我可以很大方的去听和改，可能会有点气一开始，但我们彼此都懂，会控制是不是=)可是你，好像自己真的很万能==我都完全和你不熟，你嚷嚷在那，你就说吧，一会我就会没事，大便人

大家都有心中比较排斥的对象
原来你我他，排斥的都是一样的
没什么的，只是开个玩笑的，还没真的认真对待
很好，帮完了你~希望你顺利升学~
UTAR欢迎你~
国良，你们认识吗?信息来找我！超开心~可是没有的见面==还没放假
好了，最近emo会传染
有人开始了，哈哈，不要不要，ok?
我们只是开玩笑，虽然有时真的会很奶妈，可是你的确是很好很好~

准备好了，想问个明白的时候，大家都不约而同的睡着了
算了，好像大便大不出的感觉
问到的答案，或许是不好呢?保持沉默就好

今天超愉快，12月的转机来了=)~
我很想很想和你们一起去云顶的
可是拜五真的不行，我一个很有分量的朋友要来kl报名，我一定要帮她~
没关系吧，错过了第二次，你们玩的开心点T.T
不要拍太多照片，我会很pekcek看不到自己的脸自己的笑容在里面~
哈哈开玩笑吧了~
感觉我做不到之前要做的事，哈哈，可是一点都不可惜，因为我尝试了放下，却做不到，更确定了我要的是什么~
还原还原，一切还原好了~
顺其自然，就好

看回我以前到现在所打的blog，发现我的开心指数是Local maximum，
以前真好,是不是一个人在外地久了，就真的会慢慢地改变?
开始学会接纳，开始学会伪装，这个大城市，到底人心是如何?和你最好的朋友，也会有瞒你，背叛你的一天
以前我根本都不会去担心这些
友情可以很坚固，反之，也可以很脆弱
其实哪天我不搞笑，这世界还是一样，没差，是我自己把自己看得太重要，太自我珍惜，还是自我膨胀，就像你所说得一样
以前觉得打部落，是为了别人，是为了让朋友们，更能了解我在外面的生活，都是写些日记
现在，我才发现，部落是能让你抒发自己的一个地方，你可以乱打一番，别人不需要看得懂
因为这是你自己小小的一个世界=)
打完了，N 年以后，回目一望，就可回味当时自己所做所给所说的一切
反差是极大的~
我看到了一句我之前的blog
Sometimes,.......actions......frenship!之类的，我忘了，哈哈~
是的，关心不用言语上，行动上来得更实际
很多时候，我很关心你，太关心你，只是我没说出来
想必你也一样?
惨了，我好像办不到，是你的魅力太大，还是我的定力不足?
顺其自然好了
真的不简单，可是我能接受，之前我一直接受不到的东西
虽然会乱想

To Leong Shu Jen:
Jia you 4 ur exam ya!
From: Fa jie
A note attached together with a sweet were existed on the cover my laptop
Wow sincerely i sooo touched.
Thanks=)
People will change,is just hw good or hw bad it change
But if u are not adhere to change,and just prove with words without action,then u are failed.
Witness with ur own eyes,tat most important
Impression is very important
Im gonna built my confidence up
Guys,just date me,im temporary free from now onwards,becoz i hav finish all my small tests~
date me for exercises,spend less and gain benefit~Good

很多事情，往往都不是因为讨厌彼此
而是因为有了那道尴尬的墙，要是单独，真的不知如何是好
若无其事的表态，虚假
说些开场话，无趣
世界上很多偶然，我偶然遇见你，才发现，我原来没那么大方，但我会控制，
不要惹我，就好我承认，我乱想，
是我自己心胸狭窄，自己的付出最大的代价，但如果不是因为你，当局，会存在?
时间说能冲淡一切，
我只要时间能化解尴尬
但要多久，自己为什么那么想不透?
搞到自己完全不像自己，怨自己，就对了，没人能解你心里的结
我很久没睡好觉了，老天爷，明天给我好好睡好吗?
人都是犯贱，嘴皮说，我能，我行，心里却完全相反，自作孽
我好像真的变了一个人
我现在只想放空，好好睡个觉
你们到底有几个真正懂我想什么?在乎什么?计较什么?

3.30 am
8 more hours is my chemi test
I haven start revise yet
Seem like there are many things tat i didn noticed be4
And nw i start to realised,Im blank for all mechanisms
Hmm,demotivated for long time,
But for ur sake,i will motivate bak=)
Couraging and supporting,i can feel it,
I hope i wont dissapointed u,
Pls Pls Pls,I have told thousand times,
dont let me catch u,tat u betrayed me,i treat u all as my real buddies
Please be frank to me,i sincerely hope tat,i can accept
People,be smart,don ever believe the promises tat anyone gave u.
Witness with ur own eyes,hear with ur own ears,proof with ur own mind
Admit what u hav done,stop lying like wat u told in the begining,be smart,No one will believe wat u say ,including me,u noe?Im dissapointed.

What actually i pursue in my life?
Im role as student
but sometimes i reli hates study
I rather sit in front my laptop and do nothng and let time fades away just like tat
This few weeks i reli don hav motivate to study,my schedule mess up
All i wan is just slp slp slp,i can skip eating,
I just wan to let myself sweat ,let myself tired and let myself slp
Gosh who can help me actually
Upcoming math test,i felt like to gv up
I didn hav energy,give me strength,Jesus
It will be fine after few days,i hope
Im afraid of robber,more than ghost
Please becareful for those who live in sec 17 area's frens.
I like to journey alone,am i changing become another person?
I scared sooner later i will end up and be like him,and all the people start hate me.
I hav tooo much worried,when the worried will leave me alone,and filled up with the happiness?
Stupid utar exam,i reli dislike the organisation and the way utar 's examination system.
But like i said,stop blaming,start changing,
I will stil continue to do my upmost best!
STAY STRONG Leong Shu Jen!modulus ing urself

Don nid say thanks
I owe u
U be my side, when im having the most downiest time
We are intermediate,remember =)
U trust me and i trusted u,tat all a frenship need~
Sometimes,u are sooo beautiful througout your internal personalities,and not ur physical appearance,
Coz u arent pretty at all hahaha~JUST kidding~
When u down,u stress,u need someone accompany u
Just call my name and i will be there, just like what u hav done to me when im falling in the deepest ground be4
U are the one who pull me up,u noe?
Best pal=)